Not Good Enough.....

I am at this place called not good enough
no since pretending no adding fluff
whispering cause my voice is a joke
might as well get up and put on my coat
so much hot air I am starting to float
sinking, I am a hole in the boat
not tall enough legs to short
measuring up alone no cohort
Running away from things not fast enough
everything is catching me and calling my bluff
got good size, nope that's not me
look on the inside and then you will see
the more I show the less impressed
it's not there fault I am just a mess
If I were a clown it would be ashamed to be me
like having eyes though you can not see
what's the use if I don't have a purpose
what is this--am I now the curse?
closing doors, my nose still in it
Mental dance starts to throw a fit
taking me down bit by bit
O, shit this is it....

Next in line starts to skip me
when next was called I had to pee
isn't that just like me?
Being prepared I always tried to be
giving it my all was the best of me
no matter how I tried it just wouldn't be
polishing up trying to shine through
being buffed and looking good too
smiling ladies saying I'm their boo